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I read a meme today…
It said, “I explained my hurt and still got hurt, so I stopped talking.” That sums it up for a lot of us, I suppose. I think when you allow people in and let them know the most vulnerable parts of you, you’re giving them power. And we know this, because it’s happened before. But…
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Regret..
It’s like a withdrawal from a drug. Regret for what was done, what wasn’t. Regret for what was said, what wasn’t. It’s the lack of euphoria that once was. That feeling in the pit of your stomach, that lump in your throat. It’s the reason you can’t sleep. It’s the reason you can’t eat Regret.…
abandonment, bipolar, death, depression, Faith, grief, life, loss, mania, memories, mental health, nostalgia, regret -
One year ago today..
Today marks a year since we got the call that Brittany’s mom had cancer. It was terminal. She had months. Two months, six days to be exact. It was hard. Still is. I miss my friend. Say a prayer for Brittany tonight.
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Nerves…
Why are my nerves shot when every fiber of my being tells me I’m doing the right thing? Why are my nerves shot when everyone around me is telling me I’m doing the right thing? Why are my nerves shot because I’m worried about people judging someone I love, when clearly that has never been…
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Awake?!?
For days, sleep eluded me. Depression is a bitch. No matter the cause. I wanted to sleep. My eyes hurt, my head hurt, everything hurt. Eventually, your body says “Nope, time to crash.” Now, everything hurts still.. and them some. It’s the dreams.. and then the awakening. Waking up to stillness. Waking up to despondency.…
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“Where’ve YOU been?”
Right here. Living life. With my brain going 90 mph on a million different things I should be writing, or could be writing, would be interesting to write about. It’s been a roller coaster of some “mental health” days, let me tell you! And until you experience it, you’ve no idea! And if you have…
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Henry Solomon Scott Jr. (02/04/1946-10/25/25)
I cannot find one word to describe him. Too many fill my head in such a torrential fashion. Roughly five years ago, Henry started his journey on both Parkinson’s and Kidney Disease. In the beginning, Henry was a dad who stepped up. By the end, Henry had been the dad who stepped in. From day…
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Donna Renee Cone (11/03/61-04/27/25)
If I had to describe her in one word.. it would be “faithful.” From the first time I met her, she treated me as one of her own. She loved me, and she was honest, brutally at time, but honest with me. She was kind. I’ve met one other person like her and that was…
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2025 in a Nutshell
2025 absolutely sucked! It started in February. On February 21st, Brittany got a phone call that her mother had lung cancer. The next day, we found out it was in her bones, brain, stomach, and adrenal glands. She had 4 months without treatment, 7 without. She chose no treatment. Brittany went to take care of…