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Just Say No!
The last year was trying for me. I’ve always been someone to throw myself onto a knife for someone else. This past year, I’ve realized just how much it cost me. It’s always cost me. But this year, has been a wake up call. I had a conversation with B last night. We’re so different…
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Dear Jenn…
If I could go back to January 1st 22, I’d tell you, it’s not enough to cherish what you have. You have to show it. You have to scream it from the roof tops at every opportunity. I’d tell you ego doesn’t matter. I’d tell you being right doesn’t matter. There are so many things…
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Happy New Year…
…I guess. I’m usually pretty excited about the New Year. I love fresh starts and seize every opportunity I can to use them and promote them. Not this year though. I’d honestly give anything to bring back Jan 2022. But time waits for no man.. So what have I learned? So much… but sometimes it’s…
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Happy Thanksgiving!
I know, I know! It’s been awhile since I’ve tapped something out. My life is in FULL adjustment mode. The job has changed. My personal life is different. My social life is different. I am different. Its very east to say people don’t change. Most people don’t but some do. And when someone shows you…
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Used to..
I used to think of myself as a people person.. Now.. I choose solitude. I used to get irritated by the littlest thing.. Now the small stuff doesn’t matter… I used to think I was ok… Now I realize I’m really not. I used to not be so self aware… Now I analyze everything about…
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Anxiety..
My anxiety is on 100 today. Don’t get me wrong, its been on 99 for the last month, and 90 for a couple months before that. But it’s definitely at 100 today. You know that feeling where your chest is tight, your heart and mind are racing so fast they can’t keep up with each…
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Therapy?!
Long story short, a couple years ago, (wow, I can’t believe it’s been that long since my grandmother passed,) a very close friend of mine suggested that I go see someone because of the mental roller coaster I was having. Boyyyy… did that start a chain of events. Some of them I’ll spare you on,…
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Hurting People Hurt People…
All day, two things have been stuck in my head. (Well, three if you count the Mambo number 5 song.) “Hurting people hurt people.” and “Broken glass cuts.” I know because I am a hurting person who occasionally hurts people, especially people I love. I am also broken glass, and I cut. Why? I don’t…
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Life is hard…
I heard once in a meeting, “Life is hard, if you let it be.” I lived by that quote, up until recently. Life is just fucking hard sometimes.