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Nothingness…
Where are the places you go in your mind? Are they peaceful or chaotic? Mine are both. Can they be both? Simultaneously? I guess so… because they are. My dreams take me to a peaceful place, where all is well. Everything is– right. I smile and laugh- they do too. I’m awakened by the sun…
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Grief.
I’ve had a lot of grief this year. A lot of loss. There has been a gain or two, but mostly just losses. More than a person should endure. Don’t get me wrong. I know some people have suffered way more grief than I have. I have a small plate, though. Our plates might not…
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Nostalgia
I grew up in the era where cassettes were going out, and CD players were coming in. The first part of my childhood revolved around cassettes. My first memories are filled with songs of Alabama, Leslie Gore, Connie Francis, the Eagles, etc. For reasons I won’t go into today, my mom spent a million hours…
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Description of you…
You’re in the corner of my mind every time I sleep. You’re in the corner of this house every moment I’m awake. You’re in my thoughts constantly. Maybe not at the forefront, but ever lurking in the background. You are the beat in my chest. You are what makes my heart empty. You are what…
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No one ever said life was fair…
I currently live in a world of stolen dreams. A world where everything has been taken from me. It’s a deep, deep pain. It’s a state of vulnerability that I’ve never been in before. And until you’ve been there, you can’t possibly understand. Sympathize? Yes. Understand? No. Moments are good. But moments are fleeting. I…
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Hi. I’m Jennifer…
And I suffer from Bi-Polar. Suffer- experience or be subjected to (something bad or unpleasant). I do not suffer from mania. Mania makes my house clean and shiny. Mania makes me run circles around everyone at my job. Mania makes me productive. Now, mania might make those around me suffer, lol. I am on 100%. I…
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Awake?!?
For days, sleep eluded me. Depression is a bitch. No matter the cause. I wanted to sleep. My eyes hurt, my head hurt, everything hurt. Eventually, your body says “Nope, time to crash.” Now, everything hurts still.. and them some. It’s the dreams.. and then the awakening. Waking up to stillness. Waking up to despondency.…
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A repost from someone I follow.
This is definitely worth a read, a repost, like and a comment. Goals we should all obtain. I’m gonna print this one out.
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A Runner; A different point of view
She was a runner. Sometimes on emotion, sometimes on logic, but ever the runner. Even she didn’t know if she was running from herself or running from other things. Shadows? Love? For protection? Maybe she wasn’t running from anything. Perhaps she was running to something. Searching. Looking. Maybe both. She just didn’t know. How could she expect anyone else to know? Then she ran into you. Maybe by chance, maybe with intent. Nevertheless, she ran…
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Sleep?!
I lie down, to rest… But my mind will not… So, I’m awake I close my eyes, but sleep escapes them… So do tears. Hours tick by. Days. Nearly uninterupted wakefulness. In those moments of sleep, nothing more than inertia.