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Yesterday…
It’s easy to live in yesterday.. We all do it. We live in our pasts, we hold other people accountable for their pasts.. and make them live in their pasts. Mostly, I think we all have a problem forgiving ourselves of the past. Orrrrr… maybe that’s just me. I beat myself up more than anyone…
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Today…
To say I’m exhausted is an understatement. Mentally and physically drained. Getting in your own way, or tripping over your own feet, is not a fun game. But, it was brought to my attention today that this is what I’m completely successful at doing. I suppose I knew that, but for a licensed therapist to…
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Control…
Today, I heard some stuff that was meant for me. (I’m sure other people felt that way too.) Let me see if I can explain the way my mind works. On one hand, I hate to relinquish control. On the other, I’m almost relieved to do so. Lack of control creates anxiety for me, and…
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“Sometimes recovery turns into relapse…”
I heard that song lyric today, and it hit me right in the gut. I didn’t pay much attention to the rest of the song… but oh boy, that lyric. I am in recovery. Not from any addiction, thankfully. At least not of substance. I’m in recovery from myself and have been for quite some…
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Depression…
I’ve been diagnosed with Bi-polar. It’s no surprise, since my father is extremely bi-polar. I always find myself more on the manic side, however when something crashes in my life, and I experience grief, I get low. LOW, LOW! I don’t sleep well or I sleep all day with the help of sleeping meds, I…
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Hi. My name is Jennifer, and I’m a hypocrite.
You’re damn right, I am. Who isn’t? It all depends with your experiences with an individual or situation. Recently, I was called a hypocrite. No, not the first time, but the most recent time. It turned the wheels of my brain. Whenever, I’m called out on anything I replay my actions in my head. Here’s…
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A good friend once told me, “Life is the hardest thing any of us will have to do.” I’m pretty sure that’s a famous quote, but I’ve yet to take the time to google it. It’s true though. I blog a lot. And though I haven’t been publishing, doesn’t mean I haven’t been blogging. Sometimes…
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Balance and Struggle..
You can’t have one without the other. Part of life is struggling to receive balance, and quite honestly I don’t know if we ever make it there. I know I have not… and just when I think I’m close, something throws me off kilter again. It’s simply life, and until we accept the fact that…
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Hiatus Over…
I know I haven’t updated in a long, long while. I had to do some things, feel some things, and get my life in order. What have I been doing? Well, for starters, I graduated. I kept that under wraps for a number of reasons. One, and most importantly, I’ve learned that the big moves…