It's Hard Being a Human

Today, I heard some stuff that was meant for me. (I’m sure other people felt that way too.)

Let me see if I can explain the way my mind works.

On one hand, I hate to relinquish control. On the other, I’m almost relieved to do so. Lack of control creates anxiety for me, and at the same time, it relieves me. I hate change, but I adapt well to it. Once I embrace that change.. embrace the fact that I don’t have to be in control, I’m fine.

Unfortunately, I’m hard-headed. And I learn my lessons after the fact. But believe me, I do learn them. And seldom do I repeat the same thing.

Relinquishing control relinquishes me of anxiety. If you just change it out from under me, I’ll adapt. I’ll be happy. I’ll embrace. And the anxiety will dissipate.