It's Hard Being a Human

I’m not a personal ad kinda person. I don’t get all the hype about dating sites. Not to say, I’ve never met someone on a dating site or online. I have. I’ve only met a couple of people worth knowing online. One turned out to be a lengthy relationship. When I saw her, I knew. That’s a long, drawn out story. I met a friend pretty recently in a group I belong to. Seems like kinda platonic, kindred spirits. And I met a chick out in ND that I’ve struck up a platonic friendship with. I’ve met some people in my younger years, that I didn’t really keep up with over time. I dunno, I kind of see it as mostly shopping at Target for people. And POF.. well that’s where all of my bad experiences come from, so we will call that the GoodWill of dating.

So, if I were to have an ad, what would it say? What would I be looking for? Who am I? What do I like to do, go, eat? What do I tolerate? What would I not?

Let’s start with physical, since we always look at the cover before we pick up the book. I like bigger girls. That’s the honest fact. It’s who gets my attention, it’s what I notice, it’s what I like. I wouldn’t discriminate, but that is my preference for sure. I like girls, who are genuinely pretty. They don’t need makeup, even if they like it… and I’m down with them liking it.

From a personality standpoint, I want someone to be their own person. I respect opinionated people. I don’t always like it… and sometimes I give push back. But stand your ground.  I don’t like change initially, but I adapt well to it. So don’t ask, just do. I’ll get over it. Drugs are a no-go. At least illegal ones. I don’t technically feel like weed is illegal, so do you. Just don’t lie. Again.. own it.

Now me..  i have a kiddo part-time… but make no mistake, he is my number one priority.  There’s no reason he should be around anyone until im sure… like SURE.  I’ve cheated, but I’m not a cheater. And while it was only via texts… it’s still cheating. I own it. And.. most importantly,  I’ve learned from it. Did it one relationship… worst choice I ever made. But NEVER did it again.  It cost me a lot. I own my flaws.

Things I like to do… Travel. Life’s too short to not to. I love to be outside, but I’m a homebody as well. Weird combination.  The river is where I find peace.  I haven’t always been open minded, but it’s changed. You realize the little things don’t matter.  I also don’t trust like I did. It’s the ones ya wouldn’t think… that do. But karma is a bitch. And I’ve definitely received her.  I go to church, but I’m not a thumper. I don’t know about God… but I do know about Jesus.

So.. yeah. If I were an indepth ad person… that would be it.  You live. You learn. I’m in a healing. Recovery stage. From myself. From others. You gotta heal you before you can be good for anyone.